Regrets?

There are those who say that life is too short for regrets. I think that's bollocks. I mean, I don't think you should get obsessed by your regrets and let them take over your life, but I do think regrets are important for everyone.

They should guide your life. Be they small regrets like 'I should not have stayed up so late on a School night' or massive regrets that make you sick in your stomach when you think about them.

I'm a firm believer in learning from my mistakes and I have made some fucking huge ones. I wont dismiss them as par for the course, I will worry about them, and I will dissect them to ensure I don't repeat them.

By far the worst thing about mistakes is the effect they have on others. It’s the lack of thought towards other people that really sickens me about my mistakes. But wallowing in self-pity is not the answer. You make a mistake; you have to deal with it. Regret it, rebuild bridges, re-earn trust and learn from it.

And apologise as much as you can.

I'm sorry.

What, Where, Who, How And Why

Well its now October. Not sure where the last couple of months have gone.

Seems to me that the winter seems to creep up on us these days. After the summer has completely failed to show its face that is.

Its starting to get colder, the sun is going down earlier and earlier and the clocks haven't even gone back yet.

Its three weeks till half term, and I am really looking forward to getting away from here for a week.

Life is a confusing animal. I have always been a person who is very good at adapting to my circumstances. Who will just get on within the situation I find myself. But I've got to a point where I've had enough of it. I no longer want to just survive half happily in an environment I feel I don't belong.

But the main problem I am faced with, is that I doubt my ability to do anything about this. I worry that I may just keep my head down, doing nothing, living the easy life.

Cos that's the thing, its so much easier to just go with the flow, just accept life as it is and do nothing about it, for doing something about, it takes effort and I'm not sure I will be arsed to produce it. A fantastic friend of mine has escaped. She had a goal, a light at the end of her tunnel, and she was determined to reach it.

But I'm not convinced that I have that determination. And that concerns me. I guess time will tell eh?

I’ll let you know.

Lates.

Matt