End Of The Week Thoughts.

So, its the end of half term. That's a pain in the arse if ever there was one.

I did a load of work today, broken up only by watching Spurs kick the crap out of Fulham. Which was very cool.

As I did all the work that I really should have done all week I got to thinking about life as I'm prone to do.

Its odd, that's what I decided. You seem to have two choices about how you live it:

You can play it safe, keep your head down and just get on with it. This is the self protecting way, you don't risk anything so you never really get hurt or screwed over or lose anything of value. But its also the dull way, I think. Because you never gamble on anything you may miss out on opportunities that could make your life fuller or richer.

The other way is to take those chances and risks and see what happens. Now if you live like this you are more than likely to get yourself fucked over more than once, but I suppose its all about the times you don't and you experience things that change your life for the better and things that you can look back on in twenty years and say 'yeah, that was a good time.'

Now for me personally there are times when I've been both and there are times when I was pleased with my decision and other times I still regret the choices I made.

Its a difficult one. Hindsight’s a fucker, but once you've done something you've got to live with it. So I’m thinking now that I'm gonna try and pick the times to play it safe and the times when I just go for it, with as much thought as I can muster at that particular moment in time. And try not to regret any of it. Because regret, along with guilt and mistrust can really bugger you up.

Right I'm done.

Lates.

Matt.